I believe I’ve admitted before that my fierce independence can be a detriment at times. I am happy to report that I’ve let go of a lot of that independence, am asking for help when I need it, and am reaping the benefits.
We had our Executive Women’s Association (EWA) meeting today, and I let others do all the heavy lifting and other tasks that would have taxed my breathing. I also wore my oxygen. As a result, I’m feeling much better after today’s meeting than after last month’s. I remember feeling completely depleted last month and just hoping to make it to the couch.
When I spoke last night, I did the same thing. Others did the heavy lifting and I wore my oxygen. Both made an amazing difference. It’s funny. I had just enough oxygen to sit through the program and speak. As soon as it was over, my machine beeped that it was shutting down and I had to immediately get to the car to recharge the oxygen machine and breathe. I’ve gone from hating the machine to seeing it as my best friend – I simply can’t manage without it.
And now David has become my legs. I have him “fetch” everything for me, which he does without complaint. I so appreciate his support in every way!
On Monday evening, I was anointed with oil by some of our Sevier Heights Baptist Church pastors. As was the case when they did this about four years ago, it was a special and moving experience. An added plus was that my mother joined David and me for this and prayed the sweetest prayer. We are so blessed!
I still haven’t heard anything from my lung doctor about the CT scan, which is a little frustrating but also good because I wanted to keep my speaking engagement and go to EWA today. I was afraid something in the scan would prohibit both. Now I’m wondering if I need to change pulmonologists because communicating with mine is nearly impossible.
I am set to see my oncologist on Friday and will surely have an update after that. In the meantime, know that I am doing fairly well – especially when I’m sitting down. I still have trouble breathing when I’m up moving around.
Happy for help,