If you won the lottery, would you take a one-time, lump sum payout or annual payouts over your lifetime that could result in much greater net earnings? My son Evan and I discussed this topic the other night. Theoretically, of course. It’s hard to win the lottery when you’ve never purchased a lottery ticket.
What if you needed treatment for cancer or some other major illness? Would you rather have very intense treatment – and with it some nasty side effects – for a shorter period of time or milder treatment and less intense side effects for a very long time? Having done both and facing chemo for the foreseeable future, I’m kind of wishing I could do a few rounds of something brutal and be done with it. Unfortunately, right now my odds of that are no better than my odds of winning the lottery.
I saw Dr. Gharavi and had another infusion this past Friday, and the plan is to continue on with the same treatment. The radiation did a great job of working on the tumor in my right lung, and we’re all very pleased with the results. Based on my history, however, we need to continue the chemo regimen or the cancer will likely just get bigger and start spreading again.
While I don’t feel horrible, I can tell that the toxicity levels are building up. My stomach bothers me most of the time, my joints and muscles hurt, and I have less energy. There is good news on the horizon, though. While I’ll still have Avastin infusions, Dr. Gharavi agreed to let me stop taking the chemo pills for the month of December. The break from the pills should allow ample time for recovery both mentally and physically. I often compare this fight against cancer to running a race, and I believe this breather is just the thing I need to stay the course.
With all the new developments in treatment, I also believe there is every chance that in the not too distant future there will be something we can do to knock this beast out of my body once and for all. Until then, I will carry on and be thankful to still be living.
Running the race (just a little slower),
P.S. I had a voice and plenty of energy for the Hope Gala on November 6. It was a special evening with family and friends, and I was glad for the opportunity to briefly share my story.