In a February journal entry I mentioned how the sun had been shining for every chemo infusion. I noted how it made me feel like God was smiling down on me and giving me an extra boost to get through treatment.
On July 3, the day of my last infusion, it rained – A LOT. I remember walking up the hill to the office under my umbrella and thinking rather gloomily, Well, I’m not going to get any sunshine for today’s infusion. Remarkably, though, the sun came out just as I was driving to the doctor’s office. It shined throughout my infusion. Nonetheless, that infusion hit me harder than the others. I felt pretty lousy the entire 4th of July weekend and struggled with fatigue for days.
When I scheduled an extra acupuncture treatment to help recover, the acupuncturist said she wasn’t surprised. She had seen me the day I got the news that my tumor was still the same size and could tell I was a little disappointed. She suggested that my downcast spirit probably affected my ability to handle the chemo. I think she’s right. Thankfully, her treatment gave me the oomph I needed to bounce back to normal.
Today I had another infusion and I’m feeling fine. I also saw Dr. Ghiravi for the first time. He spent more than an hour going through my entire cancer history with me. While talking about my case and explaining about some kind of mutant gene I have, he said that very few people with my particular type of cancer live two or three years. I already knew it’s a miracle that I’m still alive, but after he explained everything to me I’m even more aware how miraculous it is that I’m still around. I plan to be even more determined to live each day as if it could be my last.
I’m going to have a CT scan next week, the results of which I’ll discover when I see Dr. Ghiravi on Friday, Aug. 7. After that, he wants to discuss the possibility of radiation if the tumors still aren’t shrinking. I’m game to try anything at this point.
And that sunshine I was talking about? Today was one of the prettiest days we’ve had all summer. I even managed to sneak in a little pool time before going to the doctor. God is good!
I’ll give an update next week. I’ve heard from several people who were worried about me because I haven’t posted in a while. Rest assured that where I’m concerned no news is good news. I’II always share when there’s something to report.